When everything feels like it is falling down, take a moment
There was a time I remember so vividly that I am thankful it has passed. It was a warm July afternoon and the house was looking spectacular. After my mom had a catastrophic illness, I took the initiative to sell the family house. My mom and her sister had bought this house years before, but time has its way of showing us our directions and this once place of respite was becoming one of burden.
It took my mom a year and a half to recover enough to where she was able to be independent, but still required a little assistance in daily tasks like lifting heavy grocery bags. The family pulled together to help which was such a blessing. However, the three story house was too much for myself and her to support even with added help. I needed to find work and she needed access to hospitals that were closer than an hour drive away. It took time, but I was able to get everything ready to put the house on the market.
I cleaned and scrubbed and sold almost everything
My techniques were a bit harsh because I was throwing this that and the other thing away. I had a 5 second rule. If no one could figure out the importance of something, it would be thrown away or sold. I was constantly calling the realtor to ask about prospects and somehow was met with how many houses were on the market. Thank you 2008 housing crash! But I held the faith.
We had set up an open house so that people can see the property. We had balloons and the towels all matched in the bathrooms. Mom and I took the day to drive to Burlington which would keep us away from the house for a few hours. I was so happy and excited. We got back and I called the realtor awaiting the good news….. No one showed up. Not one person was interested. Winter was coming which would mean steep heating bills of $1,000 a month at least and neither of us worked. It was horrible.
I broke down crying and totally lost it
How could all of my hard work, all of my faith end up with nothing? To say I lost my hope in that moment was an understatement. It is funny how when you are at your lowest, darkness surrounds you so quickly. Like a whisper, it was given back to me. Hope.
After the tears pass and the anger calmed down, a plan came to me. I needed to find another solution. I had 2 or 3 months before the snow started to fall. The house needed to be closed down and we needed to leave. What did I need to shut down a house? Where could we go to stay on a couch somewhere? Little by little, solutions started to come to me and by October, we had left that house to begin another chapter of life.
In the mid-winter when the nights are long and cold, where people reflect on the coming year, and when we may feel the most alone is the time we all need a whisper of hope.
In all of my travels and adventures, hope was a driving force to my success. Sometimes it would come in the words of a stranger or message on the TV. Hope for the future, hope for a solution, or hope for an answer. So many forces surround us waiting for us to fail. I sure have a lot of people in my life who are waiting to say “I told you so” or “I knew it would never work out”. To these folks I send love and blessings. We all have that voice in hour head cheering our failure.
When the negativity is around me, I have to roar like a lion
Many Christians will use the great phrase “Get behind me Satan!” which always makes me smile. For me, I am more likely to turn on a powerful song and sing so loud that the neighbors complain, but thankfully they never do. I am the type of person to look this darkness in the eye and say that it will not win. I have walked through tunnels of fire and over mountains of thorns to get here, watch how much farther I will go.
Psalm 118:6 NIV: The LORD is with me; I will not be afraid. What can mere mortals do to me?
This even goes for my own thoughts. When the odds are all against me and failure is not an option, I have to gather up more hope that I thought I had to move forward. Success builds success, hope builds hope. Sometimes it’s a fight and other times it is in the silence. Hope can come in the darkest of moments to show we are stronger.
If you see those in your life who need a bit of hope then be that hope to them
So often we all walk around in our own little worlds so blinded by our own problems that we do not see those who may need a good word. One word or action can literally change a life. Giving too much can be draining on a spirit so if you find yourself giving too much, ask for more strength or take a moment to rebuild. My goal for this blog is to build you up. To show you that YOU are fabulous and there is hope!